Being: Unemployed, Pt. Ducks (deux)

Well, it seems I’ve come full-circle. I started this blog the day I had been let go from my job in Georgia, and here I am three days into unemployment again. Ha!

While it wasn’t unexpected, or unwelcome, it was still a bit of a shock at first. I called my bestie and boo-hoo’d for a few minutes on the way home, but, since then, I’ve been just fine. I know this is a total blessing. I can now have the much-needed, relatively stress-free break I’ve needed for months now. I can go and do things if/when I need to, because I will still have the wonderful care givers from First Light coming in on a daily basis. Primarily because I just can’t take care of my sweet Daddy on my own, 24/7. It’s too much for me to handle.

I will miss some of the people I worked with, and I’ll miss the work I was able to do. I learned so much during the four years I was there. Skills that will help me in my next employment adventure. I was told that there just wasn’t enough work to keep me, as a designer, busy. But, then again, when your boss has a check in the box by your name that says, ‘Don’t give any jobs’, then, that tends to be the case. Because jobs were being withheld from me, the work I have been able to do in the last few months was handed directly to me either by a person who really likes my work, or by my supervisor, (because she was getting all the job bags). It wasn’t being doled out through the system like for everyone else. So, no, me losing my job wasn’t unexpected.

It seems that a situation was being created to fit the narrative that the work just wasn’t there… Many people make the mistake of thinking I’m not as sharp or as intuitive as I am, and, that gives me a bit of an advantage sometimes. They think that if they tell me how things are, I’ll just believe them and go on about my business. I’m really not as stupid as people tend to think I am. (I can be a ditz at times, though! ha!) Here’s a tip for you to remember: just because someone doesn’t SAY something, doesn’t mean they don’t KNOW what’s going on. Many times, I have the advantage, because my Lord takes care of me, and lets me know things I need to know. When it comes time to react, I’ve already processed the information and situation, and can take the news without becoming overly emotional, like most people expect me to. It’s actually pretty fun to throw them for a loop… LOL

My view because yesterday was such a beautiful, relaxing day!

So, I am now on an extended ‘vacation’! Because of my situation at home with my Dad, I’m not going to be in a hurry to find a new job. I need a break in the worst way. I would love to go somewhere for a week or more, but, that’s not possible right now. So, I’ll be happy to take each day as it comes, doing things at a slower, more relaxed pace than I have in the last few years.

I know that the coming months will probably be difficult. My Dad isn’t going to get any better, and I can already see a steady decline in his health. But, other than that situation, I am truly excited to see what the future brings. I never know, of course, what the Lord has planned for me, but what I do know, is that it will be better than anything I could even dream about. And, I’ll try to keep you all updated.

As always, thanks for listening!